I Am Honestly Human

The thing I love about social media is that it allows you to connect with another person (or people) over shared life experiences and commonalities, as well as give you an opportunity to get to know a person completely unlike you. A lot of what I’m about to share, is totally new to this space, but I want to share it because I believe in this kind of opportunity. So, here it goes. deep breath This is me…

I am a daughter, sister, wife, and mother. I had a complicated, beautiful and also traumatic childhood. I love my family fiercely. I have been married twice. I had an affair. I had a baby out of wedlock. I’ve struggled with addiction. I’ve been arrested. I have been sexually and mentally abused. In one of the most broken periods of my life, I tried to commit suicide. I’ve made bad choices that God has redeemed in incredible and humbling ways. I am forgiven.

I have PCOS. I struggle with depression and anxiety. I have struggled with infertility. I’ve had two miscarriages. I’ve been in support groups. I’ve had therapy. I’ve been on medication. I am an incredibly sensitive and empathetic person. I cry about everything. I used to think that was bad, but now I’ve grown to love that about myself. I’ve broken hearts and had mine broken. I’ve been in a relationship with a narcissistic psychopath. I’ve loved and hated myself. I’ve felt soul-crushing guilt and shame. I’ve been blessed beyond measure. 8 years ago I sold all my belongings and moved across country to start over. I am very creative but sometimes lack focus or motivation. I’ve stayed “stuck” for too long. I’ve advocated for myself and for others. I am not a friend collector. I know I come across standoffish in a crowd. I love intimacy — romantically and one-on-one time with friends. I like to have a good time. I want to feel included but I have so much social anxiety before I go to an event. My vision is getting worse and I don’t like to drive at night. I love getting lost in books. I love Disney, probably more than most adults, and I think it’s because of my need for magic in my life.

I’m excited about the season of life I’m in and where I see my future going. I’m okay with having a small platform. I am so very blessed. I like who I see in the mirror. I know who I am and whose I am. This is my truth. I am honestly human. 💛(Tee from If I’m Honest Podcast)